Monday, 22 September 2008

Staring straight ahead, she smiled at the nothingness.

She didn't even know why she was smiling. It wasn't even like she felt like it. It just seemed like the only thing she could do.

After all, she seemed doomed to failure.

It was all spinning out of control again, and she desperately fought to remain in control of the crashing waves.

She couldn't fail. But it seemed she always did.

What she was most afraid of, however, was that if she fell this time, it would be for all the wrong reasons.

Suddenly she felt like she was holding far too much responsibility in her hands, for her decisions would affect more than her.

And she was afraid.

Tuesday, 24 June 2008

She sat in class, bored, words flying in one ear and out the other.

She was in a world of her own. One of mystical beasts and elves, creatures with ancient blood thrown into modern world.

A classmate talked to her and she looked at him. What he said sank in and she laughed.

She wanted to write something, but realised she didn't know what to write.

Just like Beethoven, it was all in her head. But she didn't know how to express it.

Tuesday, 29 April 2008

Alone

The alley was dark, lonely. She walked down slowly, one step at a time. For some reason, perhaps due to the pure isolation, there was a mounting pressure weighing down on her. She could barely take it. She was exhausted, her eyes surrounded by dark rings. Step after step, she dragged her feet monotonously.

She emerged from the alley, onto the street, a strong breeze blowing in from the sea. The street was empty, gloomy. Alone. No one in sight.

"EVEN A SPECTRAL WILL DO!" She screamed, desperate for any form of human-like presence.

It had been a week since she'd seen another human. A week since she had a proper rest. A week since the murder.

She carried the load on her back, carefully, as if it was the most fragile object on the earth. And it was. The last line of defense for the world, he needed to survive to meet them. He had to. That was what she had been taught all her life.

She slumped down against the wall, dejected and angry at the world. Why did it have to be her? Why did it have to be her family? Why couldn't it have been another family? Why, why why?

All because of the boy.

She had half a mind to throw the load on her back into the sea, just forget about it. But the reverence for life which had been so deeply ingrained in her since childhood acted as chains, stopping her.

She cursed silently as she stood, walking towards the port where there would be a boat. Abandoned, of course.

Friday, 18 April 2008

Rose

The flower was a sign for her. One that would determine her future. If only that damned flower would just appear.

Why wasn't it appearing?

She needed it. She needed the power that came with it. To protect. To...

What did she need it for?

Did she have to give up?

The flower...wasn't appearing.

All she needed was a rose.

She looked up to the circle of priestesses chanting around her, saying their blessings. And as she did, memories flooded her mind. And tears which she thought had long run dry once again found their way down their familiar routes.

She was running out of time.

Tears dripped to the floor.

A rose...a rose...

My life for a rose.